About Me
My Story
The Shocking Realization: My life as I knew it ended when I was 48 years old. It was and still is the toughest thing I have ever had to experience and go through. My ex-wife of 22 years became a stranger to me quite literally overnight. The realization that she had hit the abort button on us this late in the game left me dumbfounded. In all fairness, I wasn’t the greatest husband or father I could have been either. I suppose two broken people can make a relationship work; until it doesn’t.
The Crisis: Feeling like I was the only one rational enough to care about what was at stake; I fought, I begged, I tried to negotiate. For the kids and for everything I had dedicated my life to building. Nothing worked, in utter confusion and disbelief I watched as my world crumbled. Being the only one that was employed at the time I don’t know how I managed to hold it all together. I guess I didn’t really have a choice; the bills still had to get paid! While all this heartbreak was new to me, she had obviously checked out a long time ago. I remember just wanting the pain to stop.
The Divorce: In the end I lost everything and then some. The nightmare of what I experienced opened my eyes to how truly difficult and unfair men have it when it comes to divorce and separation. Especially if you have so much invested in the relationship. It really is tragic how much pain and suffering I believe some of us carry and suffer in silence. I’ve come out the other end feeling like I’ve learned a thing or two about survival and having to start over from scratch so late in life. This blog is just a passion project for me. It would be a blessing if it finds and helps someone it resonates with – Sean Cusp
